MORE NAUGHTY THAN NICE, I'M AFRAID
I have to say I won't blame anyone of you who stops reading me. I've been very, very naughty and not read or written here for eons. The only reason I can give is that...I just haven't felt like it. I've been trying to write something for my Aussie Grandmother, but even that isn't going well. I need to snap out of it. But how?
I've been feeling really, really anxious ever since she went back to Australia in mid-November to visit her children and grandchildren. I don't know why I'm feeling this way now. I never have before. I've been trying to figure out why I'm suddenly feeling this way, but I honestly don't have a clue. She comes back next Monday, so hopefully I'll be over myself by then!
I love Christmas. I really do. But, at the same time, I feel sad. I know the reasons why, but there isn't anything I can do about it. Still, the holiday isn't about me. It's about all of us. That gives me some peace.
I've decided I don't want anything for Christmas this year. I have so much already. I have my birthday coming up in two weeks, so celebrating another year of life is enough present for me.
I'm still in shock over some news I received back in October. I'm working on dealing with my feelings about it.
I'm rambling, so I think I'll stop writing for now.
Have a great night everyone.