A Night of DVD Television for Me
It is nearly 7 p.m. and I have not been out of my townhouse all day. Truth be told, I have not been downstairs. Even more embarrassing, I have stayed in bed all day, with few exceptions. I have not even eaten anything all day.
Chalk it up to exhaustion, not wanting to deal with anyone all day. I do not think I realized just how much the family situation has affected me. Perhaps, others can leave these things aside for others to deal with it. I feel like a mother bear who wants to protect her young. In this case the young is quickly approaching the age of 40.
It was probably more from having to keep my mouth shut and contain myself in a court room as a (mostly) silent observer. Yet, I am glad that I could be there, to remind my daughter that I have always loved her, even when I am sure she thought I was meddling Mom, and kept me out of her life entirely for nearly seven years. I know that I have to let go of that, myself. There is healing that needs to take place all the way around.
I am going to figure out something to eat, and start watching Season 2 of "Orange Is the New Black" tonight. Before I do, I need to run down to the library to return the book by the same name. I did not get a chance to finish it, but am not allowed to renew it because someone else has it on hold.
My friend, RGD, has checked it out for me from his public library and I will get it this weekend from him. They have many more copies in his system than we do here.
So, I will throw some clothes on and get to the library before 8 p.m. and swing by Trader Joe's for something easy to make.
If I do not check back in this evening, I will see you tomorrow, and try to read more than the 10 I have said I would. At least, I got my third article posted for the day.
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Comments
cheri wrote on September 2, 2015, 10:12 PM
You make me miss my Mom. I know that if she's only here, I would feel very much better and stronger.
CoralLevang wrote on September 2, 2015, 10:45 PM
I think that it is when they are gone, that we realize just what we had. At least, I can say this for myself.
wolfgirl569 wrote on September 2, 2015, 10:54 PM
Sounds like you needed the rest no matter what the reason. Hope you do get something to eat tonight at least.
Saramarie wrote on September 2, 2015, 11:18 PM
I tend to do this more often then not. Though I have a tiny apartment and I often will lounge on the couch. Lol I will watch Netflix and Hulu Plus marathons while doing online work.
Paulie wrote on September 2, 2015, 11:35 PM
Please take care of yourself both mentally and physically. I hope the rest of the week is super for you.
Rufuszen wrote on September 3, 2015, 4:15 AM
Nothing beats the odd day with box of DVDs to watch!
lexiconlover wrote on September 3, 2015, 4:38 AM
I miss Trader Joe's. We don't have them here. That and Whole Foods.
LoudMan wrote on September 3, 2015, 6:32 AM
It's during those times when stress makes us not want to eat, we must at least graze.
LoudMan wrote on September 3, 2015, 6:33 AM
Whole Foods uses prisoner labor! BOO! HISS!!
DWDavisRSL wrote on September 5, 2015, 3:23 PM
One of my old connections at the B, (not that she was old), had a recurring role as one of the inmates on OITNB. I have not seen her over there in a while and if she's on the other sites I write on I've not been able to make contact.
PriscillaKing wrote on September 13, 2015, 6:20 PM
My stooped, brittle, white-haired mother, whom I could pick up and carry over my shoulder if her ribs wouldn't crack, is still protective of my 5'9", 175-pound, 40-year-old sister. (And me? I wouldn't know. The price of emotional competence has been that some people see me as the tough one on whom anything can be dumped.)