Are You Disorganized, Lazy, and Unable to Follow Through Like Me?
I have always been a more spontaneous person than many others in my life. Growing up, I thought that was a fault, because it was seen as "not following through," "getting sidetracked," "being ditzy," "disorganized," and, generally, not appreciated.
It was not for a lack of trying to be different than who I am, by nature. I even tried to force more structure in my life, and to learn how to follow "the rules" by joining the military. In many ways, the military system had some of the same troubles with me, as that of my family system.
Today at 60-years-of-age, I find that I place some of the same expectations of myself. I state a plan, but I find myself diverting from the initial course of action. Interesting word, "divert."
Most define "diversion" as some sort of evil scheme to distract, disturb or sidetrack someone or something from another plan of action. However, it is also an effort (scheme) to cause something or someone to change their course of action or turn from one direction to another.
Yesterday, I had plans. Big plans. Many plans. I was to be out the door by 8:30 a.m. I even made a list:
- Manicure and pedicure
- Make a deposit at credit union
- Pick up returns (things they did not accept) from the consignment shop
- Meet T (sis) for lunch
- Go to RGD's to check on his house
- Visit RN in hospital, if he is up to it
- Go home
I accomplished four of the seven things on the list: Deposit, Pick-up, lunch, and come home. So, what happened?
I did not get out the door until 10:15 a.m. I was intent on spending time here reading, commenting, and writing. So, my list (though not actually rewritten) ended up looking more like this:
- Make deposit at credit union
- Pick up returns at Lucky Star (consignment shop).
- Stop for a cup of coffee at the mini-market and a quick chat with Bill, the octogenarian who works there
- Battle the torrential rain driving
- Sit in horrendous traffic once in Tacoma and heading south, due to the accidents
- Make it to Panda Express at 12:28, despite the traffic
- Have lunch and conversation with my sister
- Plan what-to-do for my nephew's 7th birthday
- Call my friend, BB, to see if she wants to meet for coffee
- Go to Starbucks, read a bit, and talk to some people
- Have coffee and conversation with BB, when she gets there.
- Go to car to get clothing not taken at shop and offer it to BB
- Talk more
- Go to Goodwill to browse
- Battle IH5 traffic doing 5 mph during rush hour
- Stop at Sushi Revolution for sushi, if it is nearing 6 p.m.
- Stop by Marlene's Organic Foods for two boxes of favorite crackers on sale
- Make my way back across the bridge and into Kitsap County doing 15 mph.
- Stop to check in with my 82-yo friend and talk a bit
- Watch a fair amount of the pre-season game between the Seahawks and Broncos
- Stop by Haggen grocery store a few minutes from my place for ice cream
- Come home, put things in freezer
- Try to write about PP payment but begin to doze off
- Crawl into bed and be asleep by 10:30 p.m. and sleep until 8 a.m.
Out of those 24, I accomplished them all. The manicure, pedicure, house and hospital visits will all happen on Monday. They are each of major priority now.
Does not having them done yesterday make me lazy? Disorganized? Unfocused? Or?
No, it does not. It simply means that I go with the flow. I am adaptable. Flexible. I explore many options. And I live my life, as it comes to me.
Sometimes, the conversations we have, and the people we meet along the way, spending time to listen, laugh, and share, are worth more than all the manicures and pedicures in the world.
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