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Driving Myself Mad

It is now past 3:30 p.m. on the west coast of the United States, and I am still not dressed or out the door for fresh air. Am I just being lazy? No, quite the contrary, as I have been reading and commenting and taking care of things that are important to me.

I did have nearly an hour-and-a-half conversation with my daughter this morning. It had been several weeks since we have spoken. Hearing about the continuing heartache where a situation is concerned makes me sad that she has to go through this in her life. That being said, I am glad to hear that she is finally coming out of the darkness of a bad situation, even if it is just a glimmer of hope. Unfortunately, it illuminates other issues with which she has to contend for the rest of her life.

I have also been quite active here on Persona Paper, but then I start to get a bit crazy as I watch the clock and the bank. I really need to stop this, or I will be here until midnight making myself crazier. I have to trust the process, and the community to support, as it can. I have done a lot today, and if the coins do not add up by midnight, then I have done the best I can. It is a dual process, not singular. I can only do what I can do.

With that in mind, I am going to shut down my computer, get dressed and get some fresh air. I have a headache, and need to be reasonable. Have a good day or evening, as the case may be!

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1545 PDT 13,253 19.88

1.75 hr -- +26/$.04 //107.32 to 108.20 avg

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Shellyann36 wrote on July 25, 2015, 8:38 PM

Some fresh air will do you some good. Prayer for your daughter. I hope she is able to overcome those obstacles.

Ruby3881 wrote on July 25, 2015, 9:18 PM

So close! I hope a little fresh air will help your headache. I know it's tough for you to watch your daughter going through such a rough time. Just know that she's better for you being there for her emoticon :smile:

CoralLevang wrote on July 25, 2015, 10:07 PM


CoralLevang wrote on July 25, 2015, 10:13 PM

Thanks, Kyla! I hope she realizes what she has in both her Dad, and me. She pulls away from each of us due to her own stuff. Can only do what we can do. Glad she called me though. That's a good sign.

cheri wrote on July 25, 2015, 10:21 PM

Just take it easy. Do not stress yourself too much. You have done a great job here.

lexiconlover wrote on July 25, 2015, 10:40 PM

You're getting closer! Hope you didn't go crazy.

CoralLevang wrote on July 25, 2015, 10:59 PM

cheri I'm not stressed. Actually having some fun here, especially with my last "action" post. LOL

CoralLevang wrote on July 25, 2015, 11:00 PM

No, not crazy, Lexi. LOL just a bit silly. emoticon :winking: When you read the latest, you'll see why! LOL

wolfgirl569 wrote on July 25, 2015, 11:34 PM

Hope the fresh air helped some as I have already read your later post I know you did not give up completely

CoralLevang wrote on July 25, 2015, 11:46 PM

I never really went anywhere, but did get up and water my flowers, dress, watch some TV, and cook some primavera. Was a much needed break.

MegL wrote on July 26, 2015, 4:33 AM

Well, I read your last post first, so you made your goal. Yay! That was some hard work but as you say, you have to stop worrying about the way it mounts up and trust the process. Sorry to hear about your daughter's difficulties, I hope she gets a reasonable outcome soon.

CoralLevang wrote on July 26, 2015, 9:16 AM

This husband of hers has been an albatross around her neck since she first met him. Unfortunately, she had this idea that she had to stick with it at-all-cost. (Not sure where she got that, as I would have thrown a national celebration had she left him early on.) She, nearing the age of 40 now, is living with the consequence of her decisions, and it's simply more of the same as it's always been. What could have been settled in court in December is now going to trial next month. It's ridiculous, and it's only because of this idiot, whose histrionics are a pattern of his narcissistic personality. Unfortunately, he has destroyed other things/people in his path. This wasn't his first time through it, either. She is . emoticon :sad:

Paulie wrote on July 27, 2015, 8:01 AM

It's great that you talked with your daughter. How many children do you have?

CoralLevang wrote on July 27, 2015, 11:52 AM

I have one daughter. She is it.