Yesterday, I found two pennies facing heads up. The entire day I was waiting for my luck to change.
In the middle of the afternoon, I got a text from a former roomie. She wanted to know how I was doing; she was thinking about me and would I maybe like to get some food and catch up sometime. We set the lunch-date tentatively for Sunday. Then I kinda explained to her that I just don't really like myself right now. She reminded me that I'm loved by many, herself included. Then she sent something that reduced me to tears. She said she looked up to me. When I talk about her to other people, I always refer to to her as the coolest person I know and if that cool of a person looks up to me, then I can't be that ungreat.
Today I got a call from my brother's girlfriend. She and I are a lot alike, especially when it comes to getting in our own way. She had no idea that the darkest corners of my brain had whispered 'suicide' and still she told me over and over that she wouldn't know what to do without me and that she loves me. It was the pep talk of the century. She reminded me that much like Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz, I've got the magic in me I've just got to wake up and get out of that poppy field.
Yesterday, I found two pennies. It wasn't luck that I needed; it was love.
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