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Two pennies

Yesterday, I found two pennies facing heads up. The entire day I was waiting for my luck to change.

In the middle of the afternoon, I got a text from a former roomie. She wanted to know how I was doing; she was thinking about me and would I maybe like to get some food and catch up sometime. We set the lunch-date tentatively for Sunday. Then I kinda explained to her that I just don't really like myself right now. She reminded me that I'm loved by many, herself included. Then she sent something that reduced me to tears. She said she looked up to me. When I talk about her to other people, I always refer to to her as the coolest person I know and if that cool of a person looks up to me, then I can't be that ungreat.

Today I got a call from my brother's girlfriend. She and I are a lot alike, especially when it comes to getting in our own way. She had no idea that the darkest corners of my brain had whispered 'suicide' and still she told me over and over that she wouldn't know what to do without me and that she loves me. It was the pep talk of the century. She reminded me that much like Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz, I've got the magic in me I've just got to wake up and get out of that poppy field.

Yesterday, I found two pennies. It wasn't luck that I needed; it was love.

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AliCanary wrote on July 22, 2015, 2:13 PM

Oh, Sweetie. I didn't know you had been feeling bad. I'm so glad that your friends were able to cheer you up, and I hope that you realize how much value you have in this world. It might be a good time to do some volunteer work, if you can manage, because it will nourish your soul, especially when you see how much you can do for people who need help. You will also meet plenty of wonderful, inspiring people and inspire others, yourself.

GayleStorm wrote on July 22, 2015, 2:56 PM

I've been down for a while and it was hard to see the point in continuing. I've cried a lot today but I think they're mostly pain that's finally able to escape. I could mostly definitely do with some soul-nourishing.

JohnRoberts wrote on July 22, 2015, 2:57 PM

Finding two pennies did bring a little luck: you were two cents richer. A penny may not buy much but hey, we are going a penny a time at PP.

Kasman wrote on July 22, 2015, 5:30 PM

And yet you are lucky that so many people love you. Not everyone is so fortunate . . .

WordChazer wrote on July 24, 2015, 2:21 PM

Hugs and love from this currently rather wet corner of the east of England. Good to hear your support network is available when you need it. I'm with alicanary - I've been out of things here lately thanks to dayjob and home life colliding in a nasty mashup so I didn't even realise you were feeling bad. that's MY bad for not being here to keep up with everyone.