Taking a Sabbatical (or Break) to Find Some Peace, Grounding, and Answers
If only I could take a true sabbatical, getting paid to do so. So, for those of us not in academia, we call it a "break."
I am overwhelmed by much of life right now, and cannot keep up with it all. I have shared tidbits here and there, and will continue to write. However, I need to concentrate on getting things taken care of and need to figure out what I need to do and how.
That being said, let me alleviate any concerns about my state of health for those who follow that issue. My blood markers have been "stable," meaning no concern that they are going haywire. I continue to get my monthly injection of Sandostatin LAR, which keeps any symptoms at bay for now.
I do get fatigued a bit more lately, so I might be well-served by learning to "let go" of some of the things that are troubling me. I have to remember that I have little control over much of what most bothers me, for instance: My daughter, her divorce, and how she chooses to proceed/act in relationship to the situation, and all the players, including her parents.
When I find myself more stressed, old feelings and behaviors rear their ugly heads in my life. These are the things that I thought I had under control in my past. Though that may be true, there are different layers that must be examined.
One of the triggers, as I am coming to understand it, was my father's death in January. Though I cannot change the relationship we had in my childhood, or the lack of relationship in my adult years, I am grieving deeply for what was lost decades ago.
So I hold on for dear life. My freezer shows evidence of that. As I was working through all that was stuffed in there in January, when RGD was staying with me in his recovery and I was managing it rather well, it is back to being stocked with enough for a family of four for a couple of months. I live alone.
So, I plan on making a list again, and working on getting through it again. I may need to make a decision to cook food and bring it to share with others--containers of soup, casseroles, quiches, and more. I know that I feel happiest when I am sharing. I probably need to be more willing to invite others over to spend time with me, rather than become reclusive, when I am not working.
It is summer time in the Pacific Northwest, so there will be more opportunity to get out in the light, long days, and I will try to do that, as well. It may be time to regularly make pasta salads, which keep well, and others seem to enjoy sharing.
Writing--as I shared, I am working on two blogs. You may be familiar with my regular blog, Beyond the Challenges of Life. The other is a new blog, under a pen name, to try to reach a niche audience, and to journal about a very specific issue in order to learn more and to reach out. At some point, I may integrate the two blogs, but that will be at a further date.
I am also planning on how I am to take my coaching and business to new levels. I do not want to rely on the occasional one that is thrown my way, but to be more purposeful.
So, though not in a nutshell, because this was rather a long post to fit in walnut-size, I wanted to let you know why I may not be as interactive as I could be, even if I write from time-to-time. I will do my best.
Know this: I care about each of you deeply and I wish you much love and many blessings. I simply need to step back and be a bit selfish for awhile, and I will post from time-to-time to keep you abreast of what is going on. I do not want to disappear and isolate, as is my tendency when I am most overwhelmed.
Thank you for your continued friendship, support and love. If you have my email address, please feel free to use it. If not, please find me on my blog and leave a note to stay in touch. I do try to answer all email and messages/comments left on the blog.
Peace, joy, and many blessings to you...
P.S. I had to laugh at the Captcha prompt for me to enter: "swirling vortex of entropy"! The Universe is leaving clues everywhere!
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