I made a decision
Last night I posted about a choice i have to make http://www.personapaper.com/article/23516-a-tough-decision . I really didn't expect much of a response to be honest as it was really just one of those posts where you need to just say it "out loud" more than anything else. But I really appreciate the wonderful and well thought out comments I received they were all very helpful.
I have decided I am going to take the bull by the horns and give it everything I've got. My hands are a little tied for the next 5-6 weeks as my mum is under Dr's orders to have complete rest after an operation so both she and my sister need me at the moment. But I will use some of that time to improve some of the skills I'm going to need and to formulate a game plan and a rough timeline. so that when i can get stuck into it I know exactly where to start and what I'm working towards.
I also need to recognise and prepare for the biggest hurdle i have to face which is my own lack of confidence and my depression. I'm hoping by getting a second gameplan in place which will consist of revisiting various coping methods I have used over the years making sure i use them every day.
I know this isn't going to be easy but it will be more of a personal mission than a project.
Thank you once again for the wonderful comments on my last post