What You May or May Not Know About Me
Tonight I'm too tired to be clever or profound. Part of the reason is because of these things about me.
1. I have a tendency to bite off more than I can chew.
2. I tend to jump into things before thinking them through enough because I'm trying to make lemonade with some lemons life gave me.
3. I am a hands' on learner when it comes to working online. That is part of what got me in trouble today.
4. I work hard, but not always smart.
5. When I'm overwhelmed by all the things I've gotten myself into, I tend to bury my head in the sand and ignore everything that causes stress except things with severe consequences if I don't do them. (Things like filing tax returns, figuring and paying sales tax every January, paying bills, you get the picture.)
Here's how these traits are affecting my life today.
1. I have five blogs, most of which aren't very active and that doesn't count the seven Tumblr blogs I rarely visit. I belong to more networks than I have fingers, on which I'm supposed to have a presence. I have two Zazzle stores, an educational resources online bookstore with a 600-page plus website I'm am in charge of, a Weebly website or two, and a website about my local area. I have four Twitter accounts I manage (but only two very actively). Besides Persona Paper I belong to Hubpages, Zujava, Wizzley, and technically still the B site. The photo, which you can enlarge by opening it in a new tab, is a screen shoot of my XeeMe profile that shows the networks and sites I am active on (or at least am supposed to be.) XeeMe is the ultimate social network that gives you a link to a profile that lists all your networks in one place. This screen shot only shows a part of one tab.
I can't possibly keep up with all this, so today I am trying to play catch-up on a couple of blogs, write this post, and keep up minumum activity on tsu and Twitter. I also have a load of clothes in the washer and am updating the Windows laptop I haven't used in two months. One of my computers isn't being backed up right now because I can't find the backup drive I bought. I was sure I'd brought it over here. I also haven't called Carbonite to finalize starting my backup through them since the computer crash.
2. I would not have a book business, or my large website, business blog, business Facebook page or a sales tax form to fill out, two houses and a shed full of books and catalogs, had I not lost my son in 1991. That was a lemon in my life.
Starting the business was an emotional reaction, an attempt to make lemonade. It made sense at the time. I had ten years of retail experience, most of it in a bookstore. I had been manager of one store and had acted as manager in the absense of the manager in the bookstore. I knew the business, more or less. But I had no business plan and was much better at buying books people liked and interacting with people than with planning and cash flow issues. I thought the business would distract me from my pain. I never intended it to dominate my life the way it does now.
I did fine selling at homeschool conventions until my husband's hips fell apart and needed replacing. That kept me home with more inventory than I knew what to do with and so I took the business online in 1996. A few months later, along came Amazon and it was extremely hard to keep the pricing competitive and sell the inventory I already had. I still did pretty well with schools until they started to use less and less books and more and more software. That's when the bottom dropped out and I realized I will would need to find another way to dispose of inventory that has lost most of its value to schools. Common Core was the final nail in the coffin.
My business has been as closed as an online business can be since my surgery, but I still have most of the reoccuring selling expenses that I get charged for whether I'm selling or not. I'm supposed to open for business again in a couple of weeks once the doctor lets me resume normal activities. I'm going to have to try to sell books again or make enough writing so that I don't have to, but I make more selling a book generally (after overhead is met) than writing an article.
The long and short of number 2 is that in my effort to take the lemons and make lemonade, I'm drowning in lemonade. I need to find a solution to this. See number 5.
3. Today I was trying to post another blog post on a relatively new blog that is part of my newest website. I was loving making it. I got the same high as I did when I finished a good Squidoo lens in the past. It looked great to me except for one annoying thing. Even after it was published (Wordpress.org, Tidy Theme) the title of the blog had an edit pencil icon in front of it. I thought maybe it was because I was logged in, so I got the page up in IE without signing in. Not only was the pencil still there, but the formatting was crazy.
I wrote it and viewed it in Chrome with a large screen and it was mostly beautiful, except for a few coding errors I can probably learn to fix. But in IE some of the text, including the headers for it, were scrunched together in a narrow column to the right of the photos and it looked horrible. I wasn't sure how to fix that. I played with the browser and figured out it was because the screen was medium width. Wider worked. Narrower worked. But how many readers will keep playing with it until it works? I've no idea how it will appear to someone using a handheld device. I don't use or have any handheld devices to test with.
I've always done my online work with WYSIWYG software. I've never learned to code or make style sheets. On Squidoo I learned a bit that is still helpful. But I have been learning by trial and error with a book next to me that isn't always too helpful when I need to fix something. If I had been more patient about learning in a systematic way how to make good websites, I wouldn't be in the trouble I'm in now with a huge website that needs a redo and not enough knowledge to do it right and not enough money to have someone else do it. I should be retiring, not starting over.
4. I am usually busy every minute of the day until I have to take a change of pace break every now and then to read a book. All that work though, does not accomplish what I want and need to do. That is mostly because of
5. I procrastinate on the huge overwhelming projects that take more than a few days to accomplish if I have interruptions, such as having to ship out orders, or if I choose to write or engage in other online activities. The biggest of those projects is the decluttering of the houses which would have room enough if I didn't have all the books and book catalogs from publishers. I think I will eventually get to all the paper sorting and finish disposing of stuff I know longer need or use, but I honestly don't know the best way to get rid of the books that are in inventory but have lost their value because of Amazon.
I loaded up five boxes of used books in good condition that should sell in a bookstore. I took them to the only used bookstore in my area. I was hoping the buyer would take them as a lot and I would have taken whatever he offered. But no. He paid me $10 total for five of the books and sent the rest back with me. He stood there with his scanner and decided the rest could be had on Amazon for a penny each.
Of course, I know that people shopping in his store would pay at least a dollar for those books in a store and that Amazon charges $3.99 shipping for each of those books, so their true Amazon price would be $4.00 each for even those penny books. Most of the books I brought him were in very good condition and would not have gone for a penny even on Amazon. They weren't mass market paperbacks or really common books. I've done the research. But I've pretty well decided trying to sell books wholesale to stores isn't worth my time and energy. I have donated some books and can donate more, but I have too much inventory to donate all of it. It would take years just to haul it to various places. I realize I will not have time to read all of my books I'd like to read before I die, so there's no sense in keeping them for me.
So there you have it – all the stuff about me you won't find in my profile information. The other stuff is still true. I love God, love my husband and what's left of my family, and miss our two children who have died. I like nature, being with friends, walking, reading, taking photos, writing , and social networking. I enjoy puttering in my garden and growing food when I can. I'm not so fond of housework and accounting but do what I must. The rest you can find in my writing here and on HubPages. That's me. The good , the bad, and the ugly. FOPP socialnetworking writingsites bookselling blogging
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Image Credit » I took the screen shot of my parital XeeMe Profile