Still Growing... Still Learning
Yes, I am almost 40 years old but I believe that I still have a lot of growing up to do. I'm getting somewhere but there's still a lot more that I need to do. I am not saying that I am childish or immature or anything like that, but I do know that I need to learn more.
I am blindly going and I bump and hit myself.. hard at times.. and I get bruised and hurt... So yea... I need better eyes to see... a clearer vision of where I'm headed so bumps and bruises can be avoided...
My temper still comes in as the biggest challenge of all, I am still having to exert a ton of effort to control it and sometimes I am not on the winning end and yes, I end up hurting people I love the most. Controlling my temper has been the bane of my emotional life for as long as I can remember. Then I can say envy.. wanting stuff I don't have and feeling a bit of nudge when I see people have 'em.
But as I said, I am still learning and still growing, hopefully there will come a time when I can smile and be totally 100% happy with seeing people enjoy their belongings... perhaps when I do, I can begin to enjoy what I have too.. fully... completely.