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A Whole New World

No, not the song.. but my world...

Slowly but surely, I feel my world shifting, moving...

Into a more positive one? Well, I do hope so. I completed the CLP program of the Handmaids and I learned a lot, my faith solidifying even more.

Yes, there's still much to change, much to do, much to learn, additional commitment necessary and there are a few more things I need to clarify but for now, I am happy, content with what I know and so I go...

Am I making sense? No? I thought so...

Okay let me take you back... When I was young, I never really went to church nor did my parents require me to or any of my siblings for that matter. Oh we were Catholics but never a practicing one. When I got older I got dragged into a Christian church and I started to embrace that faith.. but something along the way derailed me from that path... Church friends tried to drag me back but they just couldn't, my faith was too shaken, it being on shaky ground to begin with... then in my older years, I met a guy, he eventually became my boyfriend, and he was a different religion again, and I was so in love with him that I thought of embracing his religion... but then things didn't pan out with us... having been exposed to so many faith and beliefs, I honestly was lost... I didn't know where to go and with so many challenges facing my way, I never doubted God's existence but I doubted His resolve to help me, be with me... did I deserve His grace? His forgiveness... I pray... hoping, wishing, that He will hear but never really believing it. Now, comes my husband, his family is a devout Catholic (my original faith, imagine that! LOL) and we eventually got married and again I was neck deep into the Catholic faith but I wasn't on solid ground yet... My faith continue to shake... with my exposure to other beliefs.. other explanations... some practices, I question... some ideals, my mind refuse to process....

But slowly, but surely indeed, I begin to change, begin to embrace my original faith.. began to understand.. and now, my faith may not be totally unflinching but I'm slowly learning... slowly believing... slowly realizing...

Now, I'm in a whole new world... a world where things are possible. I'm seeing the light.. I'm seeing the fruition of all my dreams... because now I'm believing that I deserve it, I deserve love, I deserve grace, I deserve forgiveness...YES, I do and its not because of what I did or did not do... it's because of WHAT HE DID!

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Comments

Feisty56 wrote on November 13, 2014, 9:16 PM

You sound most happy and content in your spiritual journey.

celticeagle wrote on November 14, 2014, 4:33 AM

I think that is one thing a spiritual part to our lives can give us. A better feeling of who we are and where we stand in the universe.

iwrite28 wrote on November 14, 2014, 7:13 AM

It sounds like the Whole New World is truly exciting you and you're looking forward to it.

suzanne wrote on November 14, 2014, 9:00 AM

great
I wish you have a good life
stay positive

AliCanary wrote on November 14, 2014, 1:37 PM

Well, the main reason I never really joined any faith is that there are so many different religions, and they all believe different things and yet each is convinced that only they are correct, and so for me that is proof that none of them is correct. But I'm not an atheist, because it's impossible to know for sure that there ISN'T a God, so to me atheism is just as arrogant because it assumes to know an absolute truth that is likely to be unknowable. That's how I ended up being agnostic. I believe there is likely to be a higher power of some sort, but I accept that I can't understand it and that no one really can. I just try to be a good person, and if everybody just did that, we wouldn't have wars and poverty and all these other problems.