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The Holidays are coming!

As I wrote in my introduction post, Thanksgiving and Christmas are tied for my favorite Holiday. Mainly because I love spending time with my family, but also because I love the whole cooking dinner together thing, and talking about our lives, and all our memories from growing up. Plus for Christmas, I love seeing all the houses lit up and all the other outdoor decorations people do. And seeing how excited kids get when they get to take pictures with Santa.. It's just the best time of the year - to me anyways.

Though, Thanksgiving and Christmas are also hard times for me. Mostly because of not having my daughter here to spend them with me, but also because of all the loved ones we have lost over the last few years. Its just not the same. Especially since my cousin Anthony who passed away in 2005 would come over here every Thanksgiving and pig out on our food, after he had just been to two other houses and pigged out (he loved food). And he would hug us, and make lots of jokes.. he was my favorite cousin. So Thanksgiving is really hard around here.

And then for Christmas, my Grandfather who passed away in 2010 would come over every Christmas Eve and give us cards with money in them, that we would put sitting on the tree.. and we couldn't open them until he came over Christmas Day to see everything we got.. It was our own little tradition :( But now we have a new tradition, where we put our last cards from him on the tree every year.

I don't know.. I guess it's just hard to celebrate the way I used to. Though, that doesn't take away how happy I am to be with what little family and friends I still have, or how thankful I am for them and everything else I have.. It just makes it tougher to have a good time. You know? :-/

Ps: We miss and love you Anthony and Grandpa, and all our other lost loved ones. xx
And we all miss and love you too Savannah! Especially mommy xx

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Madcanman wrote on November 9, 2014, 3:11 PM

I think as time marches on things like the family gatherings at holidays can get difficult, even sad. Everyone loses someone, and the melancholy one feels can last for years, depending on how close you were to those you lost. As I mentioned in a recent holiday-themed post, the holidays just aren't the same anymore, as far as family goes. But that is something we'll all have to learn to deal with. Good luck to you with your holiday plans.

carmela wrote on November 9, 2014, 4:00 PM

i think i am not going to celebrate Christmas again this year! this will be my second lonely Christmas.

xsnmzmamax wrote on November 9, 2014, 4:49 PM

I'm sorry to hear that.. no one should spend the holidays alone :(

paperdaisyflower7 wrote on November 9, 2014, 5:53 PM

yes just like me I would invite my cousin and her kids to come over Christmas eve because it is only me, my mom and daughter. My brothers are all abroad. But this Christmas may be my saddest because my daughter might be going abroad to the US to her uncles to work before Christmas, but we will still celebrate even if simple

bestwriter wrote on November 9, 2014, 6:54 PM

I too find Christmas being the best season. We normally throw a party for poor kids and I get immense joy seeing their happy faces.

xsnmzmamax wrote on November 9, 2014, 8:19 PM

That's awesome! Sounds like something I would do.

ViperGirl85 wrote on November 9, 2014, 9:18 PM

The holidays will never be the same for us again after losing Daddy, among other personal things, but I still enjoy them, especially Christmas.

bestwriter wrote on November 9, 2014, 9:52 PM

Do it and you will know what I mean.

AngelSharum wrote on November 9, 2014, 10:22 PM

Christmas isn't the same without people we love. I guess all we can do is share good memories of them.

LoudMan wrote on November 11, 2014, 3:42 AM

You write good crazy. I like you and hope to see you do a lot more. Merry Thanksgiving. Happy Christmas/Yule. Don't drink and drive. Don't drive at all, in fact. Walk and/or share a cab.

LoudMan wrote on November 11, 2014, 3:44 AM

By the by, the tradition, letting your grandpa hang around, it's not the same for spirits but he understand familial love.