One Big Melodrama
These days I'm really taking stock and learning more and more about myself.
I have always thought of myself as a happy go lucky individual, someone who is always ready to have a good laugh but along the way I realize that, I'm not really who I thought I was.
Can I dare say that at my age, life has taken it's toll on me?
I can't say that I have gone through so much or been through hell and high water so to speak, but I realized that my life has been full of melodrama and not because it is as such but because I deem it to be.
Yes, I am the middle child and I have wanted far more than what I have been given, but I still have more than many others and I am very blessed to have my parents. No, they are not perfect but they have gone through so much length to try to prosper me.
Yes, I might not have everything I want but I know, I got more than my fair share, I think, especially thinking about other people who suffers from much worse that what I've been through.
My life is not easy, I can tell you that. but it hasn't been hard as well. It's normal. I live a very normal life with its share of ups and downs. While others suffer from loss, tragedy, and all those things you wouldn't dream, even on your enemy on a bad day (hahaha.. exag but you know what I mean) I suffer from the daily dose of life, financially sometimes we are able, sometime we need a little help. We have a beautiful place to live in, yea in spite it being small and in need of repair and improvement. I have beautiful children who have their own fits of being kids (naughtiness, hard headedness and the desire to get away with things when they know they've done wrong) but overall, I live a good life.
I realized this because, I was trying to write something funny, a light article so to speak, but I find myself hankering for words and going back through all my writings, I realized that I write of sorrows, sadness and well, just as my title goes, one big melodrama. I feel like my life is such a lonely, sad existence when in truth it's not.
So I'm going to leave all the melodrama behind and let joy shine through who's with me?